"i was just wondering if you'd come along.

hold up my head when my head won't hold on.

i'll do the same if the same's what you want.

but if not i'll go...

i will go alone."

i wish this god damned winter would end. there has been snow on the ground since, like, november or something. today it's 19 degrees and fucking freezing. all i want is to wake up in the morning with my windows open, cool spring breeze blowing in, no snow, bright sun... in a perfect world.

"bartender please.

roll one up for me.

with the kind you gave jesus

after three days in the ground."

i am sick of changing my font style every time i update. fuck this. i'm leaving it like this from now on.



i wanted to post for the last time this year. i wanted to wish everyone a happy and safe new year, as well. so, here is a song to make your new years that much better. enjoy.



there was a man named mr. lang,

and he had a neon sign.

and mr. lang was very old,

so they called it old lang's sign.



happy new year!

die die die george bush action figure. die til you're dead.

so i finally got my new layout up and running. so far so good, i think. i had nathan make me a banner and some other graphics, but i had decided to change some things around a bit, like the background color. so i just made one of my own. though i do appreciate nathan's help. it's so far taken me about 2 days to get everything close to how i want it. unforunately, i'm anal when it comes to my website. everything has to be exactly perfect, or it bugs the shit out of me. i could be out at a bar and i will all of a sudden remember that i forgot to plug wondergirl, or i left a broken link up. i know, it's sick, right? i need help.

lately i've been really frustrated. i think it's been the weather. in the past two weeks, we've had over 10 inches of snow. normally, i don't have anything against snow. i like snow. but this is the first year that i've been so frustrated from driving in it. i'm also frustrated with the longmeadow dpw. i understand that maybe they should wait until it stops snowing to plow, but when it snows for two days, they should plow atleast twice. you'd think so, huh? it usually takes them an extra two days to plow my street and the side streets i live off of. and then when they come to plow, the snow is all compacted into a sheet of ice on the pavement. "oh well" they say. "we tried". sometimes i think they drive the plows in the reverse with the scoops down just to flatten the snow. "this'll make it easier to drive on". why not just make roads out of crisco covered sheets of aluminum? that'd fucking rule.

is it just me, or does this website seem to be a giant bitch fest? i feel like we should all have nicknames like "sally seth" and "cathy caffeine". we're pathetic.

so i haven't been around for a couple days. almost a week, i guess. i haven't even gotten to update my own site yet. i haven't felt like it. i guess i'm on a kind of sabaticle from the computer. it gets on my nerves if i use it too much. but on the brighter side, i found an old mp3 cd of mine with some rockin' techno/trance mp3's on it. i'm glad that i lose stuff and find it months later. i tend to like it better when i've lost it for a while (if only my mind counted under that assumption).



i'm supposed to make my brother a web cam page, too, but again, i haven't felt like doing that either. i'm too lazy. i need to start taking energy supplements or something. does that sweet release crap count?

the following excerpt was taken from my own website. what can i say? i'm lazy.



"I went to Best Buy tonight about 8:30 PM, a little late in the day to catch the good sales, but I wasn't going to buy anything anyway. I wanted to check out some of the new stuff that came out today. I have to say too, that it was a great day for new releases. Today, the Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Rings Collectors Edition DVD set came out with 4 DVD's, one of which includes a whole new uncut version of the movie. I guess it's got like 30 minutes of extra footage...."



to read this entire post without critisizing it, please visit my cool ass website, digital caffeine. word.



btw:

i figured since i never update my own blog, i should for once, huh? gets kind of redundant only updating the main one. though i'm sure nobody reads my blog. :: wishes he had fans :: yeah... too bad i'm a loser, huh? i do have a stalker, though! check her out, and don't forget to tell her to keep on stalking!



"disco"

"... and like a boat out on the ocean, I'm rocking you to sleep.

The water's dark and deep, inside this ancient heart,

You'll always be a part of me."

oh come on its high

on the top

let it down

let a brother down

let it go down



when you're old

you don't stop

until the hill turns

into flat ground



when you die

you don't wake up

on the other side

simply stop



~djm - 6.23.01

Finally. My server woes are over. I never though changing servers would be such a hassle. It took so much work that I didn't even have time to post on such an important site as blindsyntax. Shit man, my bad. It must be the fact that I'm an Atificial Android Responsible for Observation and Nullification. That must be it. Shit, what else could it be? So I'm posting. I have very little to say except that it's getting cold. This means it will snow soon. This in turn means I will soon be sliding down mountains of icy flakes of water at speeds of over 50 MPH on a pair of titanium sticks. God I love ski season.

he is doing a server move for digital caffeine... but still could post something...

I'm glad to see our new member Kat is such a avid poster. Maybe she should not post as much so we don't use up all our server space so quickly! Jeez!



God forbid she posts ANYTHING...

I haven't updated my blog in a while now. I have been busy. School has been taking up all my time, and I may be getting a job at H&M (see Home). But I think I should post now because I think Seth is pissed off at me. See, he was in Longmeadow tonight and we were supposed to get together after he had dinner at his fathers. This was around 7 PM. I had to work at 11. Around 7:30 or 8, Kenny (my DJ boss) called and wanted my help down at Elm Crest Country Club with the wedding he was doing. So I said sure, I need the extra cash. At this time, I forgot to call Seth and let him know I wouldn't be here. So when he did call (whenever that was), I wasn't here, which I think pissed him off.



I tried to talk to him tonight, but he ignored me and went to bed. So, Seth, I'm sorry for pissing you off, and you can beat Kenny's ass for the fact that I had to help. Then again, I didn't have to, I just wanted the money. :-(



And since Shawn thinks I'm cute, maybe it'll be a kind of advantage at the interview... I'll pretend I like him until I get the job... >:-)

Damnit. Damnit all to hell. I fucked up my blog. I tried adding a picture, and it didn't work, and now I can't remove it. Damnit again.



School. Well, school has been going well so far. It's the 2nd week. This past weekend I had buttloads of homework, too. My time on the internet chatting and surfing for porn has been cut in half dramatically. I don't know if I'll be able to live. My COM 118 class (Media for the Web) didn't meet last week because the professor never showed up. Now we finally met today, and I have a totally different professor than my schedule said, which is O.K. Now, in '98, when I was in college in Daytona, I took a 100 level computer course that was pretty much an introduction to computers. This class has turned out to be an introduction to web design. I took COM 266 last semester, which was supposed to be Media for the Web as well. A 200 level course. Anyway, getting to the point, this class is ridiculously easy, and pointless for someone like me. I talked to the teacher about getting a T.A. position, and she said she'd talk to the department head. That'd be nice. I'd enjoy that. I'd enjoy it much more than actually taking the course. And I'd still get the credits. Yee fucking haw.



Other than that, school is school. I visited my brother at UMass this weekend and checked out his shit. He's having a blast. I also set him up with a webcam, so he too can now be a cam whore. Check out his site, it's better than it used to be.